What's next ?

I started off with an army tee/short at the gym a few years back. I have no confidence that i should wear running tee/short as i am pretty slow and unfit. Sometime after the workouts i start to see stars, feeling like puking and have to hide in the toilet/bathing room for a longer period until i recover and ready to face the public.

Folk like me that don't do regular exercise, except running after bus/mrt etc, run out of the blue and start to run, do it for a reason.

Health, Inspire, Fitness, wearing that beautiful clothes etc are a few common reasons for the sudden interest. After we reach our "goal", what is next?

I did a few 10kms, move up 21km and eventually 42km. Always looking for new challenge to push the boundary further. The question is when to stop?

Most of us, that exercise regularly, have come a long way to our current level of fitness. Are we going to stop(maintain) here? Or are we going to slow down and eventually reach zero and maybe start to built up again when require or the mood is there?

I hate to think that few years back, how FAT, unfit and unhealthy i must have look, whenever i see my pictures many years back. I dread to even imagine that i will go back to that level! So, i have to keep reminding myself that i cannot slack.

Sometime i wonder when i have my workout, is it because of worrying about going back to my previous shapeless form or improving my fitness? Especially so when the going get tough, i ask myself what the hell am i doing this for? I should nua at somewhere, i don't need this!

There is a period whereby in my mind i just need workouts to improve fitness, reduce weights etc. Searching for something along this path? I realise that i lost something along the way. Like socialising, pig out and spent time in non cardio activities that i used to like, eg reading, watching tv, sleeping. :(

For a period of time i will chiong all the events currently i am very selective on the events. I would choose training over running events. I am doing more cross training than focus on running alone. As time tickles away, need and requirements changes.

What is enough? How to balance? It is something that i am still on trial and error..:p